Mother used to worry how father will cope without her

Yesterday, I made this entry in my other blog:

"Enjoying the peace of silence
Today my Father's caregiver asked for a day off. So I spent the day with him. My Father is nearly a hundred years old. He is healthy, can move around freely, albeit a bit slow and eats heartily if he likes the food served. His only weakness is his hearing impairment.

Many of us might think that being silent is a negative quality and thus the saying "the silence is deafening". But watching him, I think he is comfortable with himself. Although he was silent throughout the day, he was active...he read the newspapers, English and Chinese newspapers from page to page, he meddled with his writing table, taking out everything and putting the contents back again, he made some entries into a diary for a while, he watched television (the TV was silent), he had lunch and tea and gave sighs of satisfaction when he finished. Today in particular, he made no attempt at all to communicate with me. It looks like he is enjoying his silence. So I chose to remain quiet as well and did not try to pick a conversation with him and break his peaceful silence."

I remember Mother used to take very good care of Father despite their differences.  Even 2 days before she passed away, and she was very weak and confined to the bed, she was asking me whether we have prepared food for Father.   She told me also that if she passes away she cannot imagine how father could cope with his daily needs without her.  I know she will rest in peace knowing that Father is doing okay and well taken care of.

Dream

It has been quite a while since my last entry.  I had a vague dream last night of mother.  I could not remember what the dream was about but I remember she appeared in my dream last night.  Maybe it is because yesterday was my birthday.